Faded

This feeling oscillates, back and forth I feel

Like one moment I hate and the next moment I can deal

since you only fade

you never disappear

you are always present

even though you aren't here

Every one sees you

but they don't see you in me

There's always something in my water

Traces of your memory

I am trying to remember

who I was here before you

Rewind back to September

Right before I met blue

This color is unstable

I do not care to stay

infatuated with tomorrow, while trying to figure out yesterday