Antithesis

You guys know how I do it.
Definitions for you to keep in mind.
Antithesis- the direct opposite
Ideal- a standard of perfection, beauty, or excellence

While I was working on acheiving my Ideal, Antithesis showed up. And I wonder to myself should I change my Ideal, or should I go for what I know. Mathematics doesn't solve all. I know I talk in riddles but that's my life.